You were in my everyday prayers, even when I did not know how to ask for you. 

You were in my heart during my trips to the most unusual places – in Ushuaia – the last place on earth, Iguazu Falls – the largest waterfall in the world between Brazil, Uruguay and Argentina, Cape Point – the place where the two Oceans meet, Kilimanjaro – the highest peak of Africa, Kiruna – the area where the Iced Hotel and Church were created, Punta Cana – the place with the most pristine beaches and turquoise waters, the Ural Mountains -marking the northern part of the border between Europe and Asia…

Thanks to you, I’ve discovered my body. I learned about its flaws, pains, and weaknesses. I insisted on repairing them over and over and over again for so many years so that I could nurture you one day. And when things were not happening the way I wished for, I grieved and cried… You were my 1-3% (one to three percent) chance, and I knew that “1” is not “0”. Thus, I would brush off the despair and fears, and I would restart my journey again.

Thanks to you, I changed the life trajectory and reoriented myself from outwards towards inwards, from material to spiritual, from swallowing the “leftovers” of life to choosing whom and what to accept in it, not compromising my values and my dream of dreams. I learned the hard way that there is no way to happiness, but happiness is the way. I reconnected with myself during this journey. I discovered new hobbies and I invited you into my world through my paintings, writings, and visualization. I reconnected with you in my prayers, mantras, meditations, and affirmations. 

Thanks to you, I have visited beautiful churches, holy spiritual places and crossed meaningful paths in magnificent sites of the world I would have never done otherwise. In the past ten years, I did at least one pilgrimage a year, and in each of these holy places in Moldova, Romania, or elsewhere – I was asking for you. I walked over hundred twenty km of Camino de Santiago, often alone, getting meaningful insights along the way and feeling each bliss of the swollen feet. I reconnected with the Cucuteni-Trypillia culture in the temples of Western Ukraine and Romania and asked for the support of my ancestors. I was greeted by God’s messengers – the birds – in the Nativity Church while I was exiting it, and I wrote my wish on a paper that I placed into the Welling Wall of Jerusalem. I passed through the narrow crack of two rocks in Southern Kazakhstan, which guarantees for the wish to come true. I learned about the mysticism of the Ganges and Himalayas ’ gurus, who encouraged me to think thoroughly about the true purpose of this world. I discovered Athena’s temple on the empty sites of Acropolis, where I was greeted by a family of turtles and got an olive tree for my 45th birthday. One morning and six weeks later, you gave me a sign in a dream that you have chosen to stick around.

On the 3rd spring day of the following year, you’ve “hello”-ed this world and this is the day of my rebirth, the day which I was blessed with the greatest gift I could have received. It is the day when I was re-confirmed that miracles exist. Thank you, my love, for giving meaning to the one per cent chance, for choosing me to be your world, and for giving me the gift of motherhood. You became my blessing every single day of my life and I know that the life will go only upwards from here. You are growing fast and I treasure every single memory of your growth, and I can’t thank you enough for the new meaning of love, joy, energy, and happiness you are giving me. I love you, my beautiful gift of God, who carries my DNA and has my smile and eyes. I can’t wait for you to introduce me to this wonderful new World!

…..I fell in love with you in my thirties and this love is stronger than ever. You came exactly when you were supposed to – after I learned some valuable lessons, after learning to trust my higher self, and be conscious of our endless capabilities: Be inspired, Be yourself!